It’s an aching that you don’t forget. I’m talking about that gut wrenching ache that results from the loss of love. And yes, it probably isn’t or wasn’t actually love at all, but in the moments and even days after the breakup your heart nearly stops, your eyes swell, throat sticks, head throbs and your stomach is in knots.
When talking and praying with a friend God revealed to me the misplaced desire for Him in my heart. We all feel it… That sense that something is missing. I spent much of my life trying to fill that “God sized hole” with, well to put it out there… Boys. It should be no surprise that that “fulfillment” never lasted.
Crazy how much you can suffer over the loss of love… The feeling of abandonment and unbearable loneliness. I got to thinking about it all. If that longing for love, acceptance and companionship was given to me by God and designed to be for Him, maybe that aching is a small glimpse of an eternity without Him.