Fill my cup too

Of course we get into a fight…

I just got home from a place where babies lie alone in their cribs for hours (they have flat spots on the back of their heads and can’t do half of the things that a typical baby of the same age ought to be able to do), a place where children really do go to bed hungry and night after lonely night cry themselves to sleep. It took all I had to hold it together, because even at the best of the orphanages there were children… each of them without a family and most with heart breaking stories.

It was challenging in Ecuador and I spent many evenings praying for relationships amongst our group. I’m pretty sure that everyone experienced frustration with one another at several points throughout the week, which although is to be expected, isn’t always easy to respond well to when your miles away from home and family and one after another your visiting orphanages filled with despair. Stress was elevated.

Throughout the week I reminded myself of something someone once told me… I can choose not be offended. It’s hard for me, but I did my best to remind myself that people don’t mean harm. Although there were tense moments, our relationships survived.

I think it was in part that I tried all week to hold things together… when I got home I failed to react with the same grace and it all crashed to pieces. I think it was also in part that I had seen so much brokenness this last week and was angry and ashamed to see it in my own home as well. The reality of it though is that it’s everywhere…

Whether in our haven here in the hood or an orphanage in Ecuador… The solution is the same; we all need Jesus. In our relationships and in our lives, it is only through Christ that we will become righteous. It’s an interesting thing… coming back from a trip like that…

I may have gone to help others, but I myself desperately need the Lord.

———- For (him), who I know has my best in mind. I love you Stephen.

Published by Tiffanie Lloyd

I am a detail-oriented and energetic multi-tasker traveling at the side of my best friend, and momma to eight amazing kids. God has gifted me with creativity; I'm an entrepreneur, writer, and photographer with a passion for women's health, particularity in childbirth. I'm a Parenting and Childbirth Educator, Doula, Breastfeeding Counselor, and working toward certification as a Holistic Nutritionist. Thanks for stoping by! Be sure to check out my archives, and sign up for notifications about new posts!

One thought on “Fill my cup too

  1. Tiffanie, thanks for your transparency. Sharon and I have a saying, “we're all a mess!” That phrase helps ground us in grace and the gospel instead of our own efforts to produce good. At any rate, welcome home. Thank you for allowing God to use you. He uses broken vessels.


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