To train him up in the way he should go. That is the goal. And at some point… you have to let them go. Praying that they continue in what they have learned, being made wise for salvation through Christ Jesus.
Can you believe he turns 12 this weekend? It is wonderful and terrifying and with tears I reminisce the child that made me a mother. As he embarks on this year of becoming a man, we (mainly Stephen) will continue to teach, train and guide him in the way he should go, and slowly release him into his own. He recently returned from his first “becoming a man” weekend with Stephen and another father-son duo… and he came home with a pocket knife… and for the first time we allowed him to ride his bike up the road to the game shop… and ready or not (I’m talking about me), he’s growing up.
It’s what we’ve been preparing him for all along. He was never meant to remain a child forever. As a child we speak, think and reason like a child, but as he grows we are to teach him to give up his childish ways. We are giving him opportunities to take responsibility and make his own choices… and while sometimes it seems like we are just asking for disaster… He is learning. He is growing. He is experiencing both the consequence and reward of his actions and choices and words.
I could never imagine this time. It seems as though I have always had a brood of toddlers surrounding me, and surly I have earned some badge of honor in the area of diaper changing (which I’ve been doing for 12 years now). But little adults… time really does escape… and I have no idea what I am doing… and what is to come is unfamiliar… and I miss what has passed… and while there is much I could wish to do again, we strain for what lies ahead and we pray that despite the sin, poor choices, and flat out experimentation (God bless the firstborn)… we pray that he too rejoices in the Lord, knowing that with Christ all things are possible, that His grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in weakness. We pray that despite his abilities or lack of, or the speed at which he can read or the occupation he will choose or the possessions he acquires… that his worship is always of the Lord and that he seeks to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of his life, fulfilling the ministry that he has received in the Lord… Because all else we count as loss… Because no other pursuit is worthy… Because this has always been the goal.